Endless memories - 19.06.2009 16:03
Don't listen to what they say. Forget what they think. Think what you want.
I try so hard not to be influenced. I want to be free thinking. And it even works out. I am what I am. I wear what I wear. I say what I want. It's working out all so well, but then why does it still matter what people think about me?
I don't have a free spirit.
People can make me feel ugly, despicable, undesired, stupid, unworthy and alienated.
They do all the time.
SHUT UP! Is what I try to tell myself. You know are better than that, why do you need the words of someone else to believe it?
I don't understand myself. I put myself on the second place and I shouldn't. I shouldn't accept bad treatment, insults and whatever other people come with.
I should be selfish for once and get angry, really angry or cry.
I should tell them that my memory is endless and that I remember every bad day, every bad word, all bad moments and especially the pain. It burned itself in my memory, to never forget.
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